It's funny how people intersect in each others lives. It could be for a mere second that you meet and pass. It could all start from a stare and continue on from there. Such an interesting intertwining when I met him yesterday. It was like a vacation from who I was even if it was for a few hours. It was nice. Sitting in an alley barrened with rats, people, people stuck in the 90's, the disco tech looking time leaving his apartment. It may seem like it was a dream. One more minute with him and one more. Any excuse to stay awake to hear one more word and see the smile for more then two seconds longer. It was an attraction but not just to looks. So cute but when seeing through the beauty there is an awesome person sitting behind those eyes. It was nice to meet and maybe paths will cross again.
I am pretty sure yesterday I finally realized the light that shines through me. The light that I have been told about for years. I am finally seeing it through the fog. Now is the time to appreciate and not segregate who I am and how I make someone smile, laugh, cry. How my stare and penetrate someones wall and heart. I see the glow that attracts people to me, not the superficial beauty thing but the thing I illuminate that connects people to me. Where the line is drawn and walked over no matter how shy or nervous I am or that person maybe. I guess it all comes down to is regaining my confidence. That I am invincible in things I am trying to do and the only person who has put me down is myself and it is me that has picked myself up. I guess that's what I have been trying to regain over the past three years. I guess I had to take the wool off and actually look around with a naked eye and it feels alright.
